Yesterday I was using our old pc, I wanted to transfer all my pics and files to this laptop but I ended up spending hours daydreaming while listening to all my mp3s. Grabe, dami ko pala na-download before! Ang sarap lang mag-reminisce. Hehe… All those songs made it to my playlist because of one person, Bryce. Because of him, I learned to love music even more. I was into alternative rock lang dati and he introduced me to punk, hardcore, and emo. I have a lot of punk covers from New Found Glory, The Starting Line, Bowling for Soup, Homegrown, Fake ID, Good Charlotte and Weezer, just to name a few. When we broke up, I listened to all of his fave songs day and night. Yes, I cried almost everyday especially whenever I played Startling Line’s cover of Nothing’s Gonna Stop us Now (that’s our song… how cheesy is that? Haha!). I also downloaded super senti songs from Boyz II Men, Marc Dorsey, Kevon Edmonds, Tamia, etc. Damn it, i can get very mushy sometimes. All were music for the broken hearted. And according to a feature from Burn Magazine, “there are five stages one goes through when getting over a breakup: denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance.” Those songs that made me cry were also the same ones that made me get over him. Well eventually, I got fed up. Sobrang nasawa ako sa mga kantang ‘yun! I didn’t listen to them for years! And yesterday was the first time ulit that I got to hear them, nakakamiss naman tuloy. Haha! I can’t help but smile and blush nung naisip ko yung past. Nakakatuwa…
By the way, Bryce was my ex boyfriend who cheated on me with my best friend. But everything’s alright now. No hard feelings. We’re all friends. Bryce is in San Jose, California. We keep in touch naman kahit papano. He’s happy with his life and with his long-distance relationship. He has a girlfriend for 2 or 3 years na ata. And my former best friend, Mheg, gave birth last year and is happily living her life with her family and soon-to-be husband. Nice.
Now I just want to say thank you to him, and hopefully one day he gets to read this. Akala niya kasi that I’ll always be mad at him and that I’m only being nice kaya I don’t ignore him. I loved him, and I got hurt badly, pero that was it. I got over it. We were never meant to be together anyway, even from the start. I think the only reason why our paths crossed is because we needed to learn something from each other. And yep, he taught me a lot of things about life. It was actually a blessing in disguise when he broke my heart coz I completely became a different person. I’ve changed a lot since I met him, and that was during my fist year in high school. He was and still is a bad boy, and I’ve always admired the way he handles things. I’ve always wanted to be like him, to be as free as him. He’s my complete opposite. I’m the straight-A student and he’s the high school drop out. I am what I am right now because of him. I finally got to be ‘me.’ I understood the meaning of freedom and sacrifice because of him. I’ve become a stronger person. I learned how to demand something that I really deserve. So… Bryce, thanks a lot! I miss you! Uwi ka naaaaaa! I miss our inuman days with all our friends. =)
